Wow. Such a big title to fill, “Everything beautiful I’ve ever learned from trusting God.” So many times in my life God had to undo everything in my life so all I could see was him. Stripped and left with the bare bones, I could finally see clearly. No junk, no clutter, no distraction.
How many times in life do we have to stand to lose it all in order to really gain? It is a concept that many do not want to wrap their minds around. The thought of losing what we “think” we love and care about in order to really LEARN what matters most in life is a concept foreign to many.
Some of the most beautiful, raw and REAL experiences of my life have come from loss and pain. Through stepping out, relentless pursuance of Christ and TRUSTING in Him and His promises, I have been able to experience a joyfulness, beauty and excitement for life that ONLY come from Him. Something that far surpasses the materialism we instinctively pursue with reckless abandon. Instead, I aim to pursue Him with reckless abandon and my God never fails to show me beautiful things.
Here are just a few of the things I’ve learned from trusting God:
1) When we feel like we have no one, we really have EVERYONE in Christ.
We could be down to the shirt on our backs and the power of the Holy Spirit residing in us EVERYTHING we will ever really need. I have experienced loss that left me from making tons of $ to little $. From luxury cars to practical cars. We experienced losing everything we spent almost a DECADE building and like the game Jenga, Alex and I were left to pick up the pieces. Only, we didn’t have to pick them up alone. With a loving gentleness, God knelt down and took our burdens.
It was in these times that the Holy Spirit was able to work on my heart to teach me that my values and priorities were wrong. I trusted God to do His work in my life and my heart and He is giving us back everything that was taken, but our foundation and WORTH is now built on Him and not what we “have”… amazing. A feeling many will spend countless hours working and slaving for to find out. Many others will sacrifice their earthly lives never knowing this truth.
2) God is the only one that can fill our need for attention.
I looked for it in things. I looked for it in people. I was an attention addict. Only until I trusted God to help me deal with my past was I able to understand that my “need” for attention spawned from the pain and dysfunction of my past. It was a scary thing to believe and step out in faith and TRUST God to help me deal with the pain in my heart but He is so gentle and loving. He will never hurt you friends, only help you. Go to those places with God and let Him do his work.
3) God loves us fully, wholeheartedly and without condition.
I spent much of my life struggling to overcome pain and hurts. I had a twisted view of what “true love” was and it affected my thoughts, my decisions and soon after, the path of my life.
By finally laying down my “self” and trusting God to show me what TRUE love was, I was able to experience FREEDOM. So many of us spend our entire lives in search of worth and love when all the while it is right in front of us yet many still choose to deny. My plea is that you step out and realize there is MUCH more than we can see. Let God show you what love is. It is not conditional and there is nothing you can do to earn it. When I really learned and grasped this, my whole world changed.
4) Even when we can’t see or understand our situation, God knows our situation and will never harm us.
As it says in Jeremiah 29:11-12
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
I had to trust God so many times in my life that He knew what was best for me and my family. Alex and I endured struggles and trials in our marriage that left me on my knees and CRYING for God to show up and help me. At other times, the tunnel seemed SOOOO long and SO dark. There was no light. In fact, I had to endure many trials in my life that made me feel like I was running an endless marathon wondering when (if ever) it would end.
Oh how faithful God is. How amazing His love and patience with us. Just like the song says: Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wonder and my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my Savior. This is what happened. Through all of the dark days, through all of the junk and pain… He was always there leading me for such a time as this. Now I can look back at those endless days and see Gods grace, love and mercy written all over them.
This evening, as I sit here writing this, all I can do is thank God for the “unanswered” prayers in my life and never leaving me through the hardest times of my life. He was grooming me, teaching me and growing me for this very moment in my life. He had a plan and being on the “other” side of the storm, I can tell you that His plan is for GOOD.
Dearest friends and P31 Chicks, let me leave you with this. Trusting God to reveal who He really is, is the BEST thing you can do for your life here on Earth and your eternal life. Trusting and having faith even when we cannot see will reveal more about you than ANY striving, stressing, attention seeking or manipulating factors that you EVER try to do in this world.
Step out in faith and pray for God to reveal more of Himself to you. Ask Him to help you understand yourself and why you were created as you were. Ask Him to help you trust. He won’t forsake you, He won’t hurt you. He won’t abuse you or harm you. He will only love you, teach you and help you to be ALL that He CREATED you to be.
For those who may have not taken the step of faith to ask Jesus Christ into your heart… this above all things is where to start. Asking Jesus to reside in your heart and thanking Him for dying on the Cross at Calvary for our sins. Believing that 3 days later He rose again for YOU. He sent the Holy Spirit here to guide you, teach you and help you. Ask Him in and let Him reside in your heart. I promise you as sure as the sun rises, that He is real and you are created for a purpose that can ONLY be revealed when you really know Him.
These are just a few of the things I’ve learned in my life from trusting God. I hope they bring you some clarity and hope.
I will be back soon with more P31 Chick blog posts… you guys have a great week!